I just want to scream! Sometimes I’m just so frustrated I can’t take it. Have you ever felt that way before? My husband or lack there of is such a pain in my ass. Sweet as pie but immature as hell. I really can’t deal with his antics anymore. We married almost three years ago next month and I literally just want to hang it up. He’s put me through such heartache that I don’t want to deal with it anymore. Let me give you a little tidbit of why I feel this way about him:
First off he’s lazy. He won’t do a single lick of anything around the house. He leaves it all up to me and it’s pissing me off. I’m not a housewife. I work a full time job and I write novels on the side. How the fuck do I have time to do everything else?!
Second he doesn’t work enough. He has a part time job which I told him time and time again he needs to get his shit together and look for a full time job. He works also part time as a tattoo artist, but he doesn’t really make any money. Needless to say he isn’t making any money to help out with any sort of bills. He leaves that also up to me. I don’t make a lot of money, I don’t know if he thinks money grows off trees or what. I’m getting really sick and tired of the excuses and shit. I gave him until August to get his shit together or I’m done. I gave him this ultimatum back in February and he has yet to do anything about it.
And third he’s irresponsible. He won’t take anything seriously. We have a shit load of bills to pay and he’s like “oh don’t worry honey it will get taken care of.” Who or what is going to take care of it? He’s been saying this for years, I’m still wondering how it’s going to be taken care of. Thankfully my parents bail us out a lot of the time.
I’m just sick of being hurt all the time and stressing and worrying about this stuff. It’s driving me crazy. How can someone say they love you and care about you but don’t hold up their end of the bargain? It’s called compromising and a relationship should be a two way street not a one way. Ugh I just want to scream, I don’t know how much I can take!
I went to a psychic on Sunday and she told me the same exact thing about him. She said he’s lazy, immature, and he’ll never change. She saw us separating and divorcing and she even saw me marrying again. I’m like noooo!! I don’t think I could marry again. Unless I’m truly in love, but then again I thought I was this time. Shit just happens I guess. It just hurts and I don’t want to deal with it anymore. I can’t and won’t be stressed out for the rest of my life!